5th
He was born in a manger
I have been inspired. I never thought that would happen. I am the most cynical person I’ve ever know.
Everything is changing. I’m even capitalizing. I’m not sure why, but maybe I was wrong and I’m trying different things. A lot of different things. Such as not hating people for their ignorance and hatred. Like this republican on MSNBC right now saying Sarah Palin is real, accessible. Sarah Palin was a self serving liar. Maybe the woman saying this is as well, and it suits her agenda to say it, to pander to those taken in. I don’t know. But when my rage tries to rise up as it always did before at such people, I am calming it. The way he responded to hatred and insults is now my guide. I want to be better in a way I never have before.
I wanted to get out of a country I held in complete contempt. Now I feel hope. I thought it wouldn’t go away even if he won, because there are still so many people to hate. Still so many who voted for McCain. But I’m changing. The glass is more than half full.
It was a beautiful acceptance speech he gave. The tone of my feelings toward the ignorant and hateful is changing. Because of him. I have been intolerant. Judging everyone who supported McCain along with many others as wholly without merit. WWBD. What would Barack do? This is how I aim to live my life. This man has displayed such integrity and dignity and decency and intelligence and virtue, and I now see what I could be. I have not seen this level of excellence in anyone before. I have seen the worst. I have seen the mediocre. I thought that that was all there was, and the best I could do was to try to set myself up to be separate from them. Now I don’t know. Is it possible there is more?
I feel like I can. I have had a dark life. Now I have hope.
